Becoming an adult is a weird thing. You try to have fun and enjoy your life, but it doesn’t work sometimes. You don’t get why. You are doing everything just as before, but it doesn’t feel the same way anymore. Because it takes a lot of time and awareness to notice the process of change. Playing video games and watching anime all day and night is not that good to go anymore. Homeworks are not so easy that you can do it effortlessly during the lunch break anymore. Managing your cash flow is not limited to keeping enough for a meal and saving up the rest anymore.
You’ll feel the freedom. Also, you’ll feel the consequences of it. You’ll start enjoying the little things that you used to find boring. You’ll start reading news and writing journals. You’ll start to realize how useful yoga is when you are feeling the mental breakdown, why it is important to not procrastinate and what you are consuming is defining you.
Even though everyone is faking it and wearing a mask that makes them look like everything-works-perfectly-for-me human being, I know that it is a heavy duty. I always thought that my parents and grandparents are too strong to feel pressured and weak, but now that I’m adult-ish, I finally get to my sense and acknowledge that they are just like me but older. It is the mixed feeling of emptiness and being in control of my own life.
Childhood is like a safe zone. Unconsciously, I still think of the memories a lot. Also, I feel confused a lot when it comes to make decisions thinking I’m the nose cone of a rocket and am out of the atmosphere. However, we ought to be dedicated and keep faking it. Growing up and finding your life path is so weird.
